deepakchowdhary

Today my Sunday was ruined as I was suppose to attend a ceremony of house puja of one of my dealer at Moga ....so one thing which I love on Sunday mornings that is to sleep, I had to give up. About half an hour back I returned to Ludhiana...and before I ram more about the trip to Moga and back let me stick to the purpose of this blog.
Few days back I was ping on chat by a stranger whom I just met on orkut. Last thing which I knew about her was that she was getting married. So with a big hi I asked the usual questions about how she is doing and when is the marriage day? After a few message exchanges she said “Deepak, coz you are a stranger and we wont be meeting ever in my life, I would like to say/express a few things”. With apprehension I said “go ahead”. Then she told me that she doesn’t wanna get married right now and the parents have fixed up the marriage and she hasn’t even met the groom. In a nut shell she was upset about it and bloated out whatever she wanted knowing that I am no one….as in I am a total STRANGER. And suddenly I started feeling heavy at heart. Conversation ended and that night I didn’t have a very nice sleep. Yes its true I was a stranger but there was a bond which I felt was stuck there coz now she has shared the deepest and truest feeling with me. I prayed for her that she should stay happy forever and all her apprehensions about marriage ends happily….I am sure God would grant her that.
So suddenly that stranger is no longer a stranger to me. Few days later she again met me online and this time we had a fight about something I don’t remember now. And then she came up with a statement…”You seem to be very vulnerable and touchy”…..well I disagreed and was extremely pissed off. I mean a complete stranger how can she say something like that with out even knowing me. I mean that’s a limit…..I asked her how can u say that and she said that you are easily pleased and easily upset about things…..hmmm …that’s true…! I am vulnerable that way. I am touchy about how people talk to me or treat me and the sad part is that even a comment made generally sticks to my mind and I am not able to forget that. I am always anxious as to what made somebody say that…hehehhe……
So dear stranger , though I didn’t agree with you then…but as an after thought I am sure and is not shameful in accepting that yes I am vulnerable. It doesn’t require an effort to please me. Small token of concern and an ear makes me happy. Not big gifts but just a hug would be enough. A compliment like “you are trustworthy” would take me on cloud nine…hahaha…so ya I am vunerable that way.
On the other hand even a joking comment would stick on and unless and until it is clarified it stays on…..
And the most amazing part of this simple thing was that before this I have had angry people saying that you stick onto things and you are vindictive,revengeful but none of them realised that I am vulnerable. Realising something so mundane about somebody's nature sorts of a lot of arguements and things...
With this realization and confession I would end this blog…..
So yes I am vulnerable…..!!